So, here's the thing. I'm leaving town tomorrow morning, and I'll be gone for a week.

When I get back, I will talk about:
- My trip.
- A new collaborative creative venture.
- All kinds of work shit.
- A recent psychic reading.
- A weird dream.
- Various other things.

Hope you all have a groovy week!!

Wow, I haven't been this bored in ages. I have no currently pressing responsibilities or worries. I don't even have any games I wanna play or books I wanna read. I've seen and done it all.

I'm just unmotivated. And I have a horrible case of what I call "house head." I've been cooped up all day, I feel stuffy and have a mild headache. And I just don't know what to do with myself.

I need to get out of this house. I think we will go see Hellboy tonight, but I really want to go see it right now because I am so presently lamed out.

The key word in all of the above text is "unmotivated." There's just nothing more fitting to describe my state of mind over the past 2 weeks. I don't feel like working, I don't feel like going to the gym, I don't feel like taking care of basic responsibilities like going to the grocery store or cleaning the cat box. I don't even feel like coming here to write about stuff anymore.

Maybe I'm overly exhausted or just lazy. I can't decide.

I need to find some new motivation.

There are all sorts of things I could come here and rant, rave, piss and moan about (and I probably will eventually). I'm just unmotivated to do so at this point in time.

Instead, I bring you 100% pure awesomeness:



This video looks so old and weird to me now, but I kind of think that's one of the things that makes it cool in a way. Multiple levels of awesome here. Multiple.

And Joe looks fucking hot, don't you think? :)

Ugh. Part of me sort of feels the need to clarify my last entry, and then another part of me thinks it's fine as is. I mean, I'm sure nobody really cares all that much about the specifics.

And things have been happening during work this week, and I made mental notes to come here and document/analyze those things. But now I'm here, and I'm just not really into it. Maybe none of it was really all that important after all.

I guess the major thing is that starting next week, my promotion is OFFICIAL. As in it will be announced and I will start being paid accordingly. Happiness. Glee. *pats self on back*

I'm also confused about my work friendships. Every day something totally weird and baffling happens, and it's the type of stuff that makes me stop and wonder why I feel the need to be friends with some of these people. And I guess it's sort of pathetic on my part, but the work people are pretty much the only people I associate with often enough to be friends with. Outside of work, I only know a couple of people locally, and they are via the husband. All my long-term best buddies are back across the country where I grew up.

I'm just not very good at socializing and making new friends. Not even at work really. I guess I'm just a loner type. I'm one of those people who, when it all boils down, really, really likes to be alone and independent. However, I'm always struggling internally with my need for friends, sympathetic ears and kindred spirits. Perhaps I am just too much of a freak to find these "kindreds."

Wow, I am getting far too deep here. Anyway, if more stuff along these lines happens, I'm sure it will end up here in some LJ entry of mine down the road to be overly dissected and pondered as per usual.

Aside of all the craziness/drama/stress/weirdness at work, the only other major thing going on for me is Guitar Hero Aerosmith. Yes, also very lame on my part. Sometimes I step outside myself and look at me, and I just seem so lame. I mean, I'm a 30-year-old woman nerding out over a video game marketed toward teenage boys. WTF? How big of a loser am I?

But god, it is so much fun. It's a challenging sort of escape that sucks away hours and hours of my life. I'm actually a little disappointed with the Aerosmith version. There's fewer songs, the song selection (other than the Aerosmith songs) is not that great, and it's super easy compared to the other Guitar Heroes. I really would've preferred more of a challenge. And I can't tell if it seems to be so easy because it really is, or because I'm so well-practiced at GH III. But I still love it. I just wish there was MORE to it.

OK, I'm done geeking out about it. I think I've quite possibly out-nerded and uber annoyed everyone with my incessant talk about it.

Oh hey, 1 more day this week and then it's the weekend for me because of July 4th. Sweet!

Happy Birthday to beatrixblue4!!!

So, yeah.... This past week was quite probably the most horrible and stressed-out week of my entire career. Wow, dude, seriously. My supervisor is never allowed to go on vacation again. Ever.

But I somehow survived and everything got done, and it was a miracle beyond miracles.

I also got schooled on who my real friends at work are... and they are NOT who I thought. Which was earth-shaking to say the least. I feel like my entire concept of my work environment has been turned upside down.

I mean, being in charge of things not only changes your perspective on the job at hand, but also of the people doing it. I now know who I can trust and depend on and who I can't. I was VERY disappointed in 2 of my friends who promised to be there for me this week, and totally let me down on all counts. But I was very pleasantly surprised at 1 person in particular who shined far above the rest in her awesomeness. And wow. I really need to be nicer to her because ohmygodsheisawesomerthanawesome.

So yeah.

And coincidence of coincidences... I also got a new monitor at work that sucks balls. So now all the computer monitors in my life hurt my eyes like nobody's business. Well... actually, I've tweaked the home monitor a lot and it's almost acceptable now. The one at work will require much more tweaking. MUCH.

Got the new Guitar Hero Aerosmith which I am about to go play. Cannot wait. Don't care if my husband is in there snoring at the top of his snore capacity, I am fucking playing that game ASAP.

It will take me 5,000 years to get caught up with my flist.

And also, random note/observation... but I am sooo sick and tired of irresponsible people who take advantage of responsible folks. This is not a news flash for me as it's something I complain about often. But seriously, wow, some people need to grow the fuck up and stop using other people. Like. NOW.

OK, I'm done for now.

Just wanted to pop on real quick for a couple of updates.

First of all, I haven't been on the internet much these past few days for 2 reasons:
(1) My glorious and awesome computer monitor crapped out on me, so I was without a home computer for a few days.
(2) Things are CRAZY at work, so I've spent a lot of time there and not at home.

I got a new monitor. Well, the husband got it for me. And I know he was trying to be sweet and nice, so I haven't complained to him... but it's not the monitor I had researched and picked out for myself... and well, I kind of hate it. I can't get it calibrated to even remotely resemble what my Apple monitor (RIP) looked like. And it is absolutely killing my eyes. I've tried calibrating it several times, and each time I get a little closer to normalcy. Right now, the reds and oranges are the only thing that's really bothering me... but I can't seem to tone them down without turning everything green.

*Throws hands up* You see, the wonderful thing about Apple monitors is that you plug them in they're pretty much perfect. You can recalibrate them if you want to, but there's really no need.

*Gets off my Apple high horse... for now*

Anyway, I'm sorry for my absence, and the bad news is that things are STILL bat shit crazy at work. AND my supervisor is gone on vacation for the week, so I'm left in charge of things... And it kind of scares the beejeezus out of me because it hasn't been this busy in, like, 2 or 3 years... so I know shit is gonna hit the fan several times this week. So, yeah, I'll be doing a lot of OT and freaking out, and probably won't be on here for a week or so.*

...*Unless something really screwy happens and I need to come here to vent.

So, despite the fact that I worked almost 11 hours today, and we had more late jobs today than we've had in 24 weeks... Today was a good day. Yeah. It was. :)

Taken from cattykit.

Who is the most YOU character in all of fiction?
Book, movie, television, plays, etc.

This one is really hard because I seem to have drawn a blank on all the female characters I really identify with. For some reason, I can't get Julia Ormond's portrayal of Guinevere from First Knight out of my head. I also keep thinking of Kate Beckensale as Selene from Underworld (but that's just wishful thinking on my part).

In reality, I guess I'm Pam from The Office.



What do you guys think? lol

Happy Birthday raloria!!!

Happy Birthday cattykit!

Thanks for always being to awesome/thoughtful/understanding in your comments! :)

Sometimes the smallest little thing can bring everything into focus. I *just* had a very enlightening moment, and it made me realize what a complete and utter idiot I've been about everything lately. I mean, I've been so absolutely foolish and stupid that it's laughable.

I'm actually genuinely amused at myself. Things are going to get better from here on out. I know it.

So, I'm on Facebook, and I'm addicted to the game Packrat they have on there. Basically, the premise is to collect all the "cards" in a matching set, and there are many sets. You have your own pack of cards, and when you sign up you get several other rats' packs to steal items from. You can steal from their packs and they steal from yours. You can also buy "cards" in the markets. If you have friends on Facebook that play Packrat, you can also steal cards from them. You steal a card by swapping it with one of yours from your pack. You can also purchase or steal "locks" to lock cards you don't want stolen; however, those locks are made to be broken. The whole game is based on stealing.

And there are several styles of play. I am a Free-for-All player, which means that I believe in stealing and breaking locks. However, I respect other people's styles and won't break locks if I know that person doesn't want their locks broken. Some people don't believe in stealing without permission.

Anyway, so I friended this one chick on there so I could trade 1 of my cards for 1 of hers and we stayed friends. We have stolen from each other many times since, and there has never been a problem. Last night I stole one of her cards. It wasn't locked, and she had no comments on her pack saying to leave that card alone. So, I thought nothing of it.

But apparently, it ticked her off. I had already moved the card to my Vault (which is where you put your matching sets). Once it's in your vault, it can't be removed. She sent me a message this morning asking me to return the card... when it was obvious I'd already vaulted it.

And I just thought... "The nerve!" And she even posted on her own pack that that card was missing and she was pissed. And then she posted again to leave that card alone (even though it had already been stolen hours before by me).

So, I told her I'd get her a replacement card, but seriously, I shouldn't have to do that. I had every right to steal that damn card and vault it. That's how the game is played.

She pulls this crap again, I I'll defriend her. Grrrr.

There are few things in life more pleasureful than batter-dipped and deep-fried mozzarella cheese, served with marinara sauce....

Just caught the end of Forrest Gump on TV. That part with Forrest talking to Jenny's grave. OMG, makes me cry like a baby.

Every. Single. Time.

1. Reply to this post and I'll assign you a letter.
2. List (and upload, if you feel like it) 5 songs that start with that letter.
3. Post them to your journal with these instructions.

clarksmuse gave me the letter N.


1. Not What You Wanted - Black Rebel Motorcycle Club
Took a chance on this band, and they're alright. Digging this song right now.

2. New York - Cat Power
Found her via the Flaming Lips. She's pretty awesome, and this is a good cover.

3. Not Fade Away - The Rolling Stones
An oldie but goodie.

4. No One's Gonna Love You - Band of Horses
So much love for this song.

5. Not the One - Collective Soul
This one's been popping up on Shuffle a LOT lately, and I've really reconnected with it.

My problem is that I care too much.

Before I get into what is probably going to be a very negative opinion, let me just say a few things first.

1) My opinion seems to be in the definite minority because most people I've talked to or read reviews from either really liked it, or are okay with it.

2) As far as action/adventure movies go, this one was pretty on par. So, if you're not a GIANT Dr. Jones fan, you'll probably be okay with it. I just think as far as Indiana Jones movies go, this is the worst of the bunch.

3) Indiana Jones was my very, very first crush and these were some of my favorite movies growing up that really sparked a lot of imagination in me. So, I'm overly sensitive about it I guess.


( My review (SPOILERS) )

Saw Indy 4 tonight. Pretty much hated it.

Maybe a more thorough review tomorrow after I sit on it awhile.

For what it's worth, today was a MUCH better day. I'm not going to call it a "good" day because there are a couple of things eating at me right now. But it was MUCH MUCH MUCH better.

I'm going to be OK. I really am. I'm going to be OK.